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| Wow. I have not been on xanga in so long.
I think I am in a writing mood, though it seems I have nothing to write about.
I'll write about what comes to my mind..................
I detest being sick. A lot.
It seems to me that people want what they cannot have, and this would explain behavior from people I know.
I don't like being liked after not liking someone anymore.
I
actually don't like being liked much at all. It's kind of awkward. The
other day this boy (man, whatever) wrote me a note and told me to read
it later. I wonder if he knows that I know who my husband is. Probably
not, or he wouldn't have given me that note.
I love and hate writing English essays. I like writing them when I feel creative; I hate writing them when my mind feels empty.
I used to write poetry. I don't anymore.
I think I'll start writing again.That kind of reminds me of the Notebook, except I stopped writing, not painting.
One of my favorite books is Ella Enchanted. It was suggested reading material when I was in the seventh grade. Ha.
But
I'm a sucker for fairytales. I don't believe in fairytales, though. I
think you can get something if you work for it--it's almost not as
satisfactory if it just falls in your lap and you didn't earn it.
I
remember ALL of my pets. I miss my cat Justice. He's angry because we
got a new cat. Now he doesn't like me. Except when he's hungry. Sad.
I am different from most people.
Weird.
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| My english text book suggested keeping a journal to improve writing skills.
Not that this is why I'm writing now.
I like to read.
I like to write, sometimes. It seems compelling at the moment.
I like ice cream and I really want some brownies.
I had a dream about two weeks ago about the end of the world. In the
Bible it talks about Jesus coming back--which He will eventually--and
retrieving all those who believe in Him.
Normally during the occurrence of dreaming I know I am dreaming and
sometimes can speed up the process of moving to another one if I don't
like the current one. But during this dream, I felt it was really
happening. I was in my room and I felt rather than saw that Jesus was
coming. And I felt so afraid for everyone I knew that didn't know Him.
It's made me think quite often about everyone I know or just talk to
during the course of a day. Did I invite them to church? Do they have
the ultimate answer to truth that everyone searches for in life?
Jesus said "I am the truth, the life, and the way."
What if that day comes and I did nothing? I had the answer and I never slowed down to share what I knew.
It just has me thinking lately. Did I really try hard enough? Or did I
just convince myself that once was enough and never worried about it
again?
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| College life isn't what I thought. It's pleasant.
Heaven forbid you end up alone
And don't know why
Hold on tight, wait for tomorrow
You'll be alright
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| So xanga hasn't been the thing for a very long time but I am definitely grateful for that fact.
I like the fact that I can write whatever.
So Europe...It was very
dynamic for me. There were so many beautiful places it's overwhelming.
You can't comprehend just how much every stone, building, and street
has some serious historical value of some sort. And people who live
there pass them by every day without a second thought.
I never thought I was much of
a spoiled child, but during my travels I learned there are three things
that I completely take for granted:
1. Air Conditioning
2. Ice in drinks-or how about just cold drinks in general?
3. American food, people, and language
Everyone's all "I want to
leave here and go live there" but you never realize just how much you
miss home until it's a million miles away. That's not to say that it
wasn't amazing, however, because it totally was.
I visited Berlin, Dresden,
Prague, Munich, Nurnberg (sp?), some place in Austria, Lichtenstein,
Luzern, Zurich, and Paris. My hands down, undisputed favorite was so
completely Switzerland which surprised me because my whole life I
wanted to see Paris. Nothing can compare, though, to the splendor
of mountains, rolling green hills, clean air and lakes. To me
that's more beautiful than anything constructed by man. It was so
peaceful there. I am going to buy a house there probably. And I am not
kidding.
In all of the traveling I did
away from my family I discovered that I am dependent on many more
things/people than I thought. While I missed my family so tremendously
I learned to completely lean on God, that whatever the circumstance HE
wants to be your help, HE wants to be the one you call on. I learned to
trust Him in everything, and I know if I hadn't had such a time being
away from everyone I never would have learned that. Now I know I can be
alright no matter where I am because He is always with me. I love that
feeling. It gives me peace.
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